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2007

Today is 31^st December 2007, the last day of the year. Everyone is asking me how are you going to celebrate? My reply was with my sis friends at home.
I felt lonely. Anyway there will be fireworks tonight at esplanade, bring your love ones there to watch , count down and end this year beautifully.
As I said this year was a pretty lousy year for me, however others do not agree with me. They think that it’s just my own perception. I could have look at it from another perceptive, perhaps it will turn out to be a good year instead.

Looking back at my 2007:
January; I found a job in True yoga; customer service. I work really hard everyday and met a groups of good people.
February; During Feb., I went swimming alone really often. Still working at TY, took another job as flyers also under TY. After working in the club, I will change and work as a flyer distributor. It was really kind of tiring. Wong, Janis, hui ,rena and spencer, we were like One big family. We went to each individual house to bai nian; Chinese New Year

March; I quite my job in TY at the end of the month.
April; I was a slacker.
May; Get started with PP proposal, research and meeting up with my supervisor.
June; Start to plan how to get my PP done. Drafting survey questions, reviewed by supervisor every week and, getting survey done. I went out to get the survey done personally.
July; Celebrate my Birthday; had a bbq. Most of them turn up it was really nice. Cheryl and Solomon stayed to played mahjong. Miao, Rachel turned up. May, Yuanshan, Felicia and Laymian also turned up as well. I had a great day.
It was our 1^st year anni.
August; I did nothing much.
September; I started to pick up tuition. I had my first tuition kid on 3^rd of sep. Time spent on doing PP and celebrating my two dears’ birthday; Rachel wong and Lim miao ling.Second tuition kid coming up. I was really happy. Went genting with rena and janis
October; Tuition.. Tuition.. Tuition..
November; something unpredictable happens; Our beloved Stephen loh passed away. I miss him. some relationships matters and Laptops giving me problems.
December; I went to FTP concert, went out with my dear Dina to get Christmas present ,tuition and this Christmas we went to Clive house to eat good food, play cards and drink. =)

During this year, I kind of “lost a few friends”. We are no longer the same like before. You gals take care and I will always remember those happy times we had. Promise me don’t forget me, ok ?

I am going to miss the fireworks today. I hope whoever that will be going enjoy on behalf for me ok ? I want to go very much but yea.

My heart is aching now. Emo monster is here with me again. It will be gone next year so let me be with me to accompany the lonely me. I kept having nightmare for the past few nights. It’s really all bad dreams; I cant seem to sleep well. What went wrong? I don’t know.

Protect me.

Happy 2008 guys. Love ya.

CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

Nothing special ...


~~yanyan loveeee lailai ~~

I saw her. Heartbroken. I have lots of questions in my mind. When can I ever stop that nightmare? I want to stop that nightmare and continue my fairly tale. Can I? will you assist me in helping me to continue the fairly tale?

worst month in my life

It’s been such a long time since I blog, there are too many happenings. I believe that the whole month of November of 2007 was the worst month in my life till the age of 19.

1) Life and death; our beloved Stephen Loh left the world and went to Heaven at the age of 31. Seriously till now, I still cannot resist myself from thinking about him. I miss him very much. Everyone misses him very much, I agreed to a large extend we can never find a human reason why he is being taken away from us. Well, life has to move on. I believe that he will be up there to watch over us. Indeed, life is unpredictable. Treasure your love ones is what I can say. Do not wait till when some something happen, we will then start to panic and worry.

2) Life is unpredictable so as the happening around us is unpredictable. Don’t understand?? You might think that something might never happen on you, because you believe that you can choose the correct person and lots and lots of trust and faith were given to him. OR, something that you worry the most happen, when you did try your best to avoid it but still it happens. Sad uh? It was so terrible, day and night crying and crying. We managed to overcome it and be strong. However, time is really needed to rebuild the trust. Again, let ‘time’ be our witness.

This semester had going to reach an end soon. I had chosen project management and adventure education for my electives next semester. I really hope that I can excel in both electives and core module.

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~~Yanyan loveeee lailai~~

Keep going

Yesterday was not a good day either. “No more laptop for student to loan” uh, its not fun at all to attend class without a laptop. Due to some happening in the class in the morning make me feels like going home. “Its not a big deal” make us @#$%^&*(. After two messages we are back to normal. I would like to thank CHERYL for your laptop. Thanks you so muchhhh.. you are there when I need you. muackk.. =)

Moral support from Andrea, Sheryl, Dina, Dennis, Dear and many more if I forgot to mention here, thanks.

After school , I met up with Cheryl to return her the laptop. I didn’t know where to go. I went to the photocopy shop and saw Andrea, Kenneth and Dennis there. I was really glad, and stay with them and help them to count papers. If without them, I will be going home myself emoing. *haha. *hughug.

Haha. =)

~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

Bad day

It’s a bad day. Ut was alright, if there is more time it will better. My laptop create problem in the morning. I was badly affected by it. Finally you gave me hope (Carry for you to causeway), I felt so blessed. I even tell myself that you are great and thanks for being there. But I’m wrong. I was too silly. Before the UT end, phone started to vibrate. “Leaving school already with friends.” Uh. What went wrong? Fight shouldn’t happen for today, but it can’t to avoid. WHY? I don’t understand. WHY friends? I was angry and at the same time heart broken. XIN HAO TONG, ZHEN DE. I carried and walked alone to the interchange. People that starred at me, I can’t blame them. It normal for people to think ad wander why this gal is not keeping her laptop when her screen appear to be blank. It doesn’t feel good to walk alone with that kind of emotions. Is it called retribution? Just because I laughed at someone that was being left behind by the partner, I was being punished the same way. Lots of thoughts appear in my mind when I am walking alone to the interchange, am I at fault again? Can I be angry, do I have the right to be angry? If I am angry am I too petty? Can you don’t do such thing again to me, it doesn’t make me feel good at all. I might be not understanding, not reasonable, and immature. But I love you.

I got to borrow a laptop for class tomorrow. I’m having UT tomorrow as well. It wasn’t nice. Not at all. I felt as in I’m a.l.o.n.e.

~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~